I have not written in a while. I think this is because I do not…need this as much? Last year this blog served as an empty room into which I could step and then yell as loudly as possible about all the things that scared me or made me angry or confused me. This year is different. I don’t need to yell, and that’s AWESOME.
I am exhausted by the end of every day, but as opposed to last year when it was out of frustration and confusion, I am exhausted out of…effort this year? I overexert myself with teambuilding cheers and energetic lessons, and yet I am honestly rarely frustrated or confused at hte end of the day. Last year I found myself sitting in my room or in the dark on on a bean bag chair staring blankly into space asking “what the HELL just happened?” This change from total cluelessness to acceptance and…some semblance of confidence. It’s a HUGE change, but I love it.
I love my kids, I love teaching, I love progress, and I love feeling ike I’m not a failure.
All this being said, it just means I have a lot less to write about. I could quote how hilarious and wonderful my kids are, and sure, I’ve got the usual amount of 11 year old girl drama, but those seem relatively repetitive in the face of last years anger.
I’m just…happy with how this year is going. I can and soon will be doing more, and maybe once I’m truly overexerting myself I’ll have more to write about. That or I’ll go into stage 2 hypertension and I’ll just blog from the hospital…(my BP now is averaging 145/95. I call that fifth grade teacher BP.)
As soon as something catastrophic or magnificent happens, you’ll be the first to know, internet audience. Until then, no news is good news 
